I had three paragraphs typed out about what I’ve been doing besides blogging, but my friend Erin seemingly climbed into my head and wrote what I have really been thinking.

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It’s not that I’m sooooo busy [I mean, I am, but that's not the real reason I haven't been here] … it’s just that I have been inside my head.

I’m about to have 2 under 2.

And if you know me at all, you know that Lucy is very VERY attached to me. If Ken gets her up in the morning, she often cries until I get her. If we are all walking through a store and Ken’s holding her, she’ll cry for me. She spends the majority of her day right beside me. She has no idea that I’m about to have a little someone that will need me a whole lot more than she does.

Moms do this whole 2 under 2 thing. A lot. And I know everything will be okay, but it’s always in my mind.

I have an almost 5-year old who is so freakishly intelligent, she makes me sweat daily. I just … I don’t even know. She keeps us on our toes.

I am currently 35 weeks pregnant. I have a date for my c-section if I don’t go into labor naturally before then. I’ll be 39w6d when this little man makes his arrival, and that’s only a little over 4 weeks away.

At the end of the day, I’m not a business blogger. I don’t do this as a job. I don’t do this to make money or gain subscribers or get ad revenue. I do this to share our lives, and our lives have been more introspective lately.

It’s just how it is RIGHT NOW. And things may change, and I may start blogging regularly again. But for now, I need this time inside my own head.

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