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pregnancy

I figure once I’ve been absent this long, I might as well just start a blog post as if I’m in the middle of a sentence. I mean, really … there’s really no way to explain what all has been going on lately. But here it is in a nutshell – bedrest is over [wahoo!], stomach bugs for 2 of us, teething cold for 1 of us, BAD allergic reaction to I-don’t-know-what, car shopping, house cleaning, and sleeping.

Oh … and this:

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Holla!

Do people even care about baby updates and stuff when you’re pregnant with baby number three? By the way, it still feels really REALLY weird to say “number three.” I mean, sure … there were times … moments … seconds, really, where I thought another baby would be fun. But Ken was definitely not on board, and the memory of placental explosions and the first four months of Lucy’s life would bring me screeching back to reality FAST.

But here we are. Adjusting. Deep-breathing. Meditating. Screaming.

Anyway, I have been feeling very uninspired lately, mostly due to internalizing the thoughts that run through my head. My camera is lonely, my project 365 has all but been abandoned, and I don’t “see” things like I used to. I don’t know if it’s the morning sickness [which may be going away, but I don’t want to jinx it] or the daily panic of having a third baby or the catching up from that week I was on bedrest. But I just don’t have it in me right now.

So that little peek into my uterus will just have to suffice until I can get my brain back together.

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one more day

October 26, 2011

in emma,lucy,pictures,pregnancy

So I have one more day of bedrest, and then it’s on to “light duty” for a week until my next ultrasound to see how the little bean is doing. And since I still have people emailing me and leaving FB messages that they had no idea … I’m pregnant. Yep. Sure am. Surprise!

You would think that bedrest means TONS of computer time, but it just hasn’t been that way for me. I’ve actually enjoyed catching up with programs and movies and documentaries on Netflix and Hulu. And reading. I’ve been reading books with actual pages. And napping. I’ve been doing that a lot. Really, when else can I just flat-out nap in the middle of the day?

It sounds like it’s been really fun, but not for me. I’m not a layer or a napper or a couch potato. I have kind of been bored out of my mind. But at the end of this, we’re trusting that there will be a healthy baby, so it’s worth it.

I didn’t share this initially, and I’m still uncertain about sharing it, but I’ve had people question why I am on bedrest for bleeding, which is fairly normal in early pregnancy. Yes, it is normal to bleed and cramp during early pregnancy. But I had placenta previa and a placental abruption with Lucy, so they are extra cautious with me, even in the beginning. Yes, there is a good chance I won’t have any placental issues this time around, but there’s also a possibility that I will. So better safe than sorry. And the second reason that I am only sharing to offer full disclosure is that I lost a same-sac twin. God had His hand in this, because same-sac twins often have very serious obstacles to overcome, so while it is sad, it is also part of His will for the remaining baby to be strong and have a chance of being totally healthy.

Anyway, I have enjoyed spending more time just being with my girls.

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Lucy combs her hair, now. I melt into a puddle every single time she does it.

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Bedrest = lots of daddy diaper changes with original score by Emma.

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And sometimes, when I’m really lucky, she brings her “work” into the bed with me.

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So, really … it hasn’t been that bad.

Get ready for a fabulous advertiser spotlight and giveaway tomorrow or Friday!! I am SO EXCITED!!!

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I know things have been quiet around the blog, and I’m sorry for not posting more. But things have not been very quiet in our lives.

We started this week with the addition of an epi pen into our everyday lives. Lucy had a pretty bad reaction to something [still don’t know what, since I am very vigilant to her allergies] and her allergist went ahead and got us a couple to keep on hand. It’s one of those things that makes you relieved that you have it, but MAN … why do I have to have one of these!?!?

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My poor booger bear. I hope we NEVER have to use it.

Also, a couple of weeks ago, Ken and I found out that we are expecting baby #3. An unexpected surprise!

[I know, many of you are picking your jaws up off the floor because we were pretty vocal about only having two.]

We were going to wait to share with everyone [in a much more creative way!] after my first ultrasound at 12 weeks. But this morning, I ended up having to have an unexpected ultrasound due to some bleeding and cramping. The baby looks good … saw a teeny tiny heartbeat and everything. Unfortunately, I was so relieved, I forgot to ask to take the ultrasound pictures home with me. But I have a follow-up in two weeks, so I’ll grab some then. Don’t be too upset – it is so early, that the ultrasound was basically a round blobby sac with a grain of rice inside. Rice with a heartbeat.

I did get this picture, though.

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You’re welcome.

Anyway, we decided to go ahead and share this news, because any prayers or positive thoughts would be appreciated right now.

And for those of you wondering … no, I will not be running the half-marathon next weekend. Doctor’s orders. I cannot tell you how sad this makes me – all of that training for nothing. But I think I’m going to get the 13.1 sticker anyway, because I DID run 14 miles a few weeks ago. And I did all the training for it. Does that count???? ;)

Thank you, xxoo

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part 1 here

Now, take a deep breath … it all turned out okay.

So that was a lo-oong night, and I was pretty exhausted the next morning. I kept having contractions through the night, and they picked up the next morning, so they gave me more meds to stop labor, and we were just waiting for the fetal monitoring specialist.

She came in pretty early the next morning and did her thing with the abdomen ultrasound, where she looked for the placental abruption. It appeared that I had placenta previa as well as the abruption.

an obstetric complication in which the placenta is attached to the uterine wall close to or covering the cervix

After doing an internal ultrasound, she found that I did, in fact, have placenta previa. She wanted to take the images back to the main specialist to look over and said that he’d be there around lunchtime.

The great thing was that the ultrasound also showed that Lucy was extremely healthy and BIG for her age – they estimated that she was around 6lbs 10oz and measuring between 36 and 37 weeks.

The OB that was seeing me (because I had been seeing a midwife rather than an OB, I was referred to the one that happened to be on call that night and morning) said that since they had slowed my contractions, I could go ahead and eat some breakfast – a delicious plate of french toast and bacon. [Little did I know that I would be eating that same breakfast for a few more days!]

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Sure enough, around lunchtime, the fetal specialist came in to discuss the images that he had seen.

Basically, he explained that a couple of things were happening …

1. I had a placental abruption at the top of my uterus, and it allowed blood to pool and clot between the placenta and the wall of the uterus (called a retroplacental clot). Does anyone remember me complaining of back pain? It had been determined that I had a pinched nerve, but it was actually an abruption happening over time. This had been going on for MONTHS, and I had been bleeding for a long time (hence the clot that I lost at home).

2. I also had placenta previa, and there appeared to be a placental blood vessel right at the opening of my cervix.

The placenta is responsible for working as a trading post between the mother’s and the baby’s blood supply. Small blood vessels carrying the fetal blood run through the placenta, which is full of maternal blood. Nutrients and oxygen from the mother’s blood are transferred to the fetal blood, while waste products are transferred from the fetal blood to the maternal blood, without the two blood supplies mixing.

He said that if I had continued with my planned waterbirth and that vessel had burst during labor, Lucy would have died in seconds.

I pretty much lost it at that point.

It was determined immediately that we would do an emergency c-section, and while the doctor said he’d like to wheel me down the hall right away, I had to wait at least 6 hours to let my breakfast digest.

They were monitoring me and the baby constantly, so they were prepared if anything happened, but I practically tried to hold my breath for the next 6 hours.

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Around 3pm, the nurse started preparing me for surgery, and it became a reality that this was actually happening. We were going to have our baby girl that night.

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I called my parents, and they drove up from Georgia, as well as my brother. The rest of the afternoon was mostly just a waiting game and a lot of prep for surgery. They came and got me around 5:30pm, and I was so nervous.

The operating room was SO cold, they were covering me with heated blankets, but I couldn’t stop shivering. And once the spinal was administered, I completely freaked out. I don’t know if it was just everything crashing at once or what it was, but I could not get comfortable with the fact that I couldn’t feel my legs. It was the strangest sensation ever to be able to feel my arms and shoulders and head but nothing else.

I remember apologizing to everyone, because I was such a nutjob, but I still couldn’t calm myself down until they told me that the doctor had cut into me … it was then that I realized that I wouldn’t be able to feel anything. It was going to be okay.

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So for 35 weeks, the baby had been head down. Every ultrasound, every exam, every second of every day, she was head down with her feet in my ribs. And during the ultrasound that morning, she was head down. So the doctor prepped me and cut me based on that.

It wasn’t until they got in there that they realized she was actually breech, which made things a little more complicated. [As if things needed to get more complicated, right!?] But after a lot of pushing down on my chest, a lot of pulling and tugging and rocking my body around, there she was.

6:17pm

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Because she was early, they didn’t really hold her up for pictures or for me to see her, so while they were cleaning her up and giving her a little bit of oxygen, I’m asking Ken if she’s okay – and he’s telling me that she’s perfect.

And she certainly was.

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All 6lbs 14oz of her was absolute perfection.

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It wasn’t long until they brought her to Ken, and it was amazing. She was here and she was healthy. And then I got to hold her for the trip back to our room.

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So … it was a completely crazy 24 hours. Lots of ups and downs and worry and peace. And in the end, it all worked out exactly how it was supposed to.

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The things that happened – the bleeding, the contractions, the fact that I didn’t get the waterbirth I had planned, the early bed rest – it all came together for a purpose.

God was truly watching over us.

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I had been on bedrest for a week, and I hated it. I was nesting like crazy, and all I wanted to do was clean and organize and hang curtains in Lucy’s nursery and finish the binding on her quilt and scrub every baseboard in our house with a q-tip.

But I couldn’t. I was stuck sitting on the couch while watching the dog hair pile up in the corners.

It was Wednesday, August 25, and Emma was getting bored from sitting inside 24/7. I bought some fun play-dough and molds so we could have something to do that we both enjoyed. And we made brownie bites and downloaded some new games for the iPod.

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So it started out as a normal day.

Around 5:30pm, Emma was throwing herself onto my yoga/birthing ball and flipped off and hit the entertainment center with the back of her head. Tears ensued, she jumped into my lap, and I consoled her as I do very often (after all, she’s a very active 3-year old and hurts herself approximately 892 times a day).

And then I said something to make her laugh while she still had tears in her eyes.

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[And that was the last picture I took before our lives changed]

Ken was teaching that night, so I put some frozen french bread pizzas in the oven, and we each had a slice with some applesauce. I always eat applesauce with frozen pizza – it’s something I did as a little girl and something I guess I’ll always do.

Now here’s where I tell you the whole truth and nothing but the truth. It’s not pretty, so proceed at your own risk.

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